Angels Watching Over Me.

I seem to be kicking myself today. Just like I did yesterday and the day before. But today somehow seemed different from any other. I woke up and couldnt seem to keep my eyes open. but made myself anyway. There was something about today that was different.


The normal morning routine was in act. All of the cousins were already out the door and to school. Aunt and Uncle finishing up breakfast and ready to take off out the door. Everyone wished me a good day and much love. Uncle Kevin was the last one to do so. but before running out the door he turned around and told me  "Be happy today. Dont worry about anything. Please have a happy day. I know you need it."
It was simple to tell me that before walking out the door. And took no effort at all. Something so small and so simple completely opened my eyes and made my day bright. He knew all I needed was a little encouragement.


I have seemed to forget about being happy on a daily basis because I have in my mind that I am not happy at this point in my life. but it is only a state of mind. I can be happy whenever and wherever.
That all plays into the choices I make. and the people I associate with.


There was a big conversation I had the other day that went into the people we associate with. The way they desribed it was think of being in the ocean. A person can either help you keep your head above the water. Or they pull you under where you cant breathe. Are you going to allow that person to continue to keep you under or are you going to cut the rope or your association with that person.
I have those people that I allow to pull me under water every day. Although there are many people that keep me up. Isn't it harder to keep someone above the water while there are others who are pulling them under?


Though my mind is still running 90 to nothing and feeling like I have ran smack into a brick wall. I was and still am determined to have a happy day. Despite those people that pull me under the water.


At some moments I cant help but smile. May it be a memory or a little something someone says to me or just a good feeling I get. But its those few little smiles that have kept me from bursting tears. On the deep deep inside of me I feel I may be falling into pieces. but for some reason on the other part of the inside I'm not falling. I'm smiling. I'm whole. I'm happy. Happy I have the world at my grasp. Happy I can now begin my life. Seems as though those little random smiles are sent to me. Sent in the form of Angels Watching Over Me.