My life has shot threw the stars since the world has last heard from me. Just a quick update of my life.. I went to school and got my cna license. Now work for Mercy as a PCT and absolutely love my job. I have recently gotten my own apartment and am living with my old roomate. Ive pretty much set up a decent life for myself for college, but sadly there is something thats not right about it. Everything is just how I wanted it..I finally have a full time job that I love. I dont have to worry about not having enough money and the hours are great for a college student. I can further my education easily. Sounds like there is no problem.. There shouldnt be any problems. I cant seem to put my finger on it. I just feel like I need to leave and never look back. Find a college up north and run as fast as I can..
Why? I confuse myself.. and probably have confused the world in the process. If there is someone out there that understands my mind. PLEASE feel free to explain to me! haha
Things I really want for myself I hold onto with such a tight grip. I guess its hope. Hope I will achieve great things someday. I know everything happens for a reason. I say that all the time and its something I live by. Sometimes I want to know why things are happening in my life. Whats the reason for it all.
I tell myself quite frequently that I am happy with my past. Must say I do learn from my mistakes everyday. I couldnt be more blessed with the path I have chosen. Every heartache and joy is just a stone added to my path. Just as every one else has I have created my own path. I was guided by the most incredible people to a new path of life. Nothing could make me happier then what I have come to know. This is my Path of Life.
I may not understand it sometimes. I may question my choices.."Why".. Why things happen the way they happen. The only one who knows is the Lord God. He isnt a God of secerets. Look at it in a way..He has suprises for us. He cant give those away. Something wonderful may come out of the worst situation. He oversees all of us and wants us to learn on whichever path we choose. He will guide and lead for the love He has for each one of us.
With the happiness I have for the path I have chosen. There is still that linger of wanting to share that. I will someday. Guess I need more guidance and there needs to be more stones added before that may come to me. But for now its just me..walking my path.
