This year... I have realized that life always moves. Always goes on. Where ever you may leave it..its not going to be there if you come back for it. One thing I have learned in the past year..time changes everything. And the only ones there for you in the long run are your family. This year I've shut everyone out. Including them. I've run away to my little corner of the earth and proceeded to live my life...my way.
This year..I fell in love. Cera actually fell in love with an incredible man. A man that needs love and someone to love him..for simply just being him. He was wonderful to me. Just like any relationship we had hard times and disagreements. I would not have given that up for anything. All the hard things we went through only made us closer and stronger. But also through it all, we loved and played and enjoyed each other. With everything we went through, this man became my best friend. That's all I've ever wanted is to fall in love with my best friend.
Yet now things aren't turning out the way I've always wanted. I honor the choices he makes and his wants and needs. I would not ever say an ill word about him or the the experience we have given each other. I am very sad to say that things change. Although I do not like the situation..I will take it the best way I can and start over.. As for him. I wish him the best in all he does. I wish that he lives a good life and he can find happiness for himself. He deserves that. He deserves the best.
Just as I have said before I want to be the woman who has absolutely no regrets. I want to be proud of what I have accomplished in my life. This year..I can say that I have absolutely no regrets and I am proud of both of us! I don't regret a single thing I've done in this relationship. There are a few things I would have done differently. Yet I can't go back in time and change them..but there are no regrets. I've learned from this and have yet to fall in love again to make a difference in another wonderful mans life.
Truthfully I can't wait for the day I look into the mans eyes that I love and say I do. I can't wait until our future baby takes their first breath or first steps. I can't wait to share the joy of raising our children together. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with the man I love.
I did not have all of that happen to me..this year.
But my story is yet to be over. Next year... Now that's a new chapter.
