Sometimes I just have really nothing to say or write about. And for some reason the past week I havent felt the need to say anything on my facebook or my blog. Feels like what i have already said has gotten to the people that have needed to read it.
This past few weeks I have been very content. Yes I have had my stressed moments. Where reality hits me and I am stuck in a black hole for a minute until I see a little bit of light again. My life feels as though it should be completely falling into pieces, but for some reason, as i have said before, I dont feel that way at all. It makes me feel very accomplished. I have everything opened up to me. I can do whatever I want with my life now.
I can say that and thats such a good feeling, but at the same time... I cant say that I know exactly what I want to do with it. I know I will find what I love and make it into a career. I just have to put some thought into it.
Through a little bit of thought. I have started to feel as though my mind hasnt been where it needs to be. It always seems to be in a virtual world. Its real, But very unreal at the same time. I have thought a little bit about temporarily suspending my facebook account. I may do this or just stay off facebook for a few weeks at a time. Or I may reconsider because of people that i only associate with through facebook. Family and such. Just to give me some time to get reattatched with the real world. I will be able to concentrate on my life to get me started in the right direction.
My mind seems to wonder. And the more it does it the more time passes. I feel as though i have wasted so much time reading status' and junk...when in the long run it wont matter for my life. Those that i just read 10 mintues ago arent gonna matter in 5 years. What i plan and what schools I apply for.... thats what is going to matter. After i leave Utah.... Cera is going to be changing dramatically. Its time to find my future.
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